For Once

It’s a gloomy Friday night.

Some are still at work, extending their work shift; some are having drinks, catching up with an old friend.

Some are already asleep, alone or with their loved ones.

I am on of those who are on their way home, struggling against the traffic in the metro.

As I listen to music, I look back the past three decades of my life.

I have always been trying to be strong, for myself, for my loved ones, for my friends, for my family.

Majority see me as someone with “strong personality”, “alpha female”, “tough”, “intimidating”, “can kick your *ss off”

But I realized that…

For once, I want to be taken cared of, rather than taking care of someone/others

For once, I want to feel loved, instead of just loving someone/othes

For once, I want to be fed, rather than feed others

For once I want to be asked how am I, instead waiting for others to respond to my similar question

For once, I want to be loved the way I love others

For once, I want to get the attention that I was never getting or the attention I try to give to others

For once, I want be held in your arms, rather than me giving my warm hug to others to keep them warm

For once, I want to feel than I am wanted, rather than me wanting them.

For once, I want to be selfish, and just think about myself.

For once I want to be vulnerable, soft, gentle, cry baby, defenseless

For once I want to be myself.

For once.

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Posted by on August 6, 2016 in random thoughts


Sixteen Things in Twenty Sixteen

Three years ago, I published a blog about my 13 resolutions last 2013. Some of the items I noted I was not able to fulfill, and I will just probably carry over those resolutions this year.

  1. In the past few years, each new year, I try to list down my to-read books. :p What usually happens is that I will start reading a book, and be stock reading it, until I have finished reading other books. So my first resolution will be – To finish reading all books that I have left unfinished.
  2. Run marathons or ultra marathons. I am hopeful to join at least 16 races this year.
  3. Sixteen new places/cities to visit in twenty sixteen. I hope to do more domestic travel this year as I haven’t been to Mindanao.
  4. Do at least 16 days of workout per month. There should be no excuse regardless if it’s month end closing, budget, etc. I can do 4-5 days a week during non-busy weeks, but I tend to slack during month end closing or busy weeks.
  5. I hope to meet sixteen new people. Better if we can become friends but at least additional network whether work related or hobby related. I met a lot of new people in 2015 (especially in the gym and running), and I am positive to meet more this year.
  6. Minimize sugar and carbs. I eat RICE. Like, TONS of Rice 😉 Since January, I was able to avoid sugar in my coffee. At the same time, I am able to manage 1 cup of rice only per day. Hoping I can sustain it and see its benefits soon.
  7. Replace my coffee with tea as much as possible.
  8. Each meal I eat should at least have a cup of leafy vegetables
  9. More oatmeal, more fiber in my diet
  10. Turn off data/wifi of my phone from 10pm up to 6am. Maximum hours that I should be online is 16 hours per day.
  11. I am guilty of spending too much time in Facebook. I have uninstalled FB app (only retained FB messenger). I plan to access only FB during weekend.
  12. I need to spend more time writing blogs. The last time I have written a blog was last November. I should be able to write at least 16 blogs per year (is there a widget/app that can show percentage of completion of a certain task)
  13. At least 16 minutes of quiet time per day, and allocate it reading the bible. I have planned reading the entire bible a few years back but I lost track. As I have read a number of books, I should be able to finish reading the bible in one year time
  14. Plant more flowering plants and herbs. I have a balcony in my condo and I plan to transform it
  15. Write poems, snippets, short stories, etc. When I was in high school, I write poems and have it published in our school organ. 🙂 I love to read poems and it is so romantic when someone writes you a poem or anything similar.
  16. At least each week, I will write something I am grateful/thankful for; and by the end of the year; I will read each notes I have written to reflect and see how wonderful the year have been.

I’m claiming that this year will be my best year. Looking forward to a great year ahead!


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Posted by on January 10, 2016 in random thoughts


Missing Rikku


Baby Rikku

I still can’t accept that you’re gone. You’ve shared your life with us for only 40 days but you move us all. You are so small yet you give us the biggest laughs and smiles. You are so fragile and tiny but everytime you bark, you seem bigger and more assertive. You always stare at me whenever I change clothes and you always smell or use as blanket my soiled clothes. Your tiny tongue kisses me so softly that tickles my whole body. I always imagine you’re still under the chair sleeping on your blanket. I still imagine you’ll wake me up early Saturday morning to ask for food. I still imagine you roaming around my small room and making it your own home. I still imagine you try to out run me everytime I step out of the room. I thought you will be with me in my new home but you left at the same day when I moved in my new house. I will always think of you baby Rikku. You have touched my heart like nobody else did. I will always miss you lying with me on my bed, or you lying on my chest. I will miss everything about you.


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Posted by on November 22, 2015 in random thoughts


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Taiwan 3 Day Itinerary (Day 1)

Arrived at around 1230am via Cebu Pacific flight, queue at the immigration is quite long. It took me and other passengers quite some time to pass the immigration as there were too many passengers while only a few immigration officers.


As my US visa is still valid, I was no longer required to apply for Taiwan visa. You can apply for travel authorization certificate as long as you have a valid US Visa. You can see the details on this link.

I waited for the dawn to break before heading to the City. The transportation system is well organized as there are a number of buses you can choose from depending on your chosen destination. I paid NTD90 from the airport to Taipei Central Station. Travel time is around 1hr.


I arrived Taipei Central Station around 720am. Bought a 3 day MRT pass for NTD440. I already know I’d be travelling a lot thus I am sure I will be able to maximize the amount I paid for the 3 day unlimited ride.


Since it is still early, I decided to head firat to Taipei 101. It was the world#s tallest building more than a decade ago.



As I roam around Taipei 101 building, I have noted a number of bicycles available for use by public.


Then I decided to go to Chang Kai Shek Memorial Hall via Chang Kai Shek Station.


Presidential office building is 10 to 12 minute walk from NTU Hospital Station. Nearby this building is a restaurant that serves one of the best beef noodles in Taiwan. The restaurant has no name though. 😊



Spicy beef noodles

After having lunch, I decided to check in the hostel to freshen up and take a quick rest.


Then I am back on the road to see Dr. Sun Yat Sen Memorial Hall and walk further around the city.



Peace Park is near Presidential Office and National Taiwan Museum (not much to see though).



Confucius temple is roughly 10 minute walk from Yuanshan Station.


SHILIN Night Market via Shilin Station is also 10 min walk from the station. You will find so many food choices and I really had a hard time choosing what to buy.


Shilin Night Market



Taipei 101 at night is such a wonderful sight.


Taipei 101

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Posted by on October 31, 2015 in random thoughts


Finding My Way Back to Love, Finding my Way to You

As a little girl, I have always seen myself married by 26 years old, as I want to raise a family with my husband and four children. Coming from a small family (I only have one brother), I felt that it would be more fun if my kids will have sibling-playmates thus until now I continue to dream to having four kids in the future. I have always felt that I will be a good mom (but will aspire to be the best mom that I can be): I have trained myself to properly prioritize tasks and allocate resources (budget our finances), I know how to cook well (and I can even improve myself on this), I have known how to baby sit since 12 years old as I have been a baby sitter to at least five of my nephews (from my cousin). I am loyal, highly responsible, decisive yet considerate; thus my husband need not to worry about me taking care of the family. I have already envisioned how our house will look like – it will have a library as I will make sure my kids value reading; it will have a music/hobby room so that our family can spend quality time together. I will teach my kids on how to be physically active rather than social media active as this does not only train one’s physical abilities, but helps inculcates discipline, patience, perseverance, and team work.

I’m thirty five now and in less than six months time I will be thirty six. I am hopeful that I will still have my own family with four children. I am still hopeful that someday soon, I will meet the guy who will wipe away all my tears and tell me that I should no longer worry about our future as he will be there to take care of me. For quite a while, I am trying to find my way back to love, but I can’t seem to find it back. I am finding my way back to myself to make myself ready when love comes knocking at my door. I am hopeful, not hopeless; at the same time realistic. If, because of biological clock, I may no longer be blessed with kids; I will still be hopeful that I will meet my partner who will be with me until we both grow old. I am hopeful that he will be with me every step of the way, until my last breath, until I am just “hoping for it” rather “experiencing it.”

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Posted by on October 5, 2015 in random thoughts


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Day 1 of 7 Day Japan Itinerary

I have always loved traveling and Japan is included in my bucket list. I have always thought of seeing the sakura trees bloom or experience snow in Japan territory. I am a big fan of anime at the same time I love to learn about a country’s culture and history by visiting their old structures or historical places. I have always thought that Japan is just a dream destination as I have this connotation that everything is very expensive in Japan. As they say, experience is the best teacher, and I prove myself wrong.

I tried to read some blogs and sought help from some friends in Japan so that I can finalize my 7 day itinerary. So many last minute changes in my plan but I never regret any.

Here’s my do-it-yourself 7 day #JaFun itinerary.

Day 1
I boarded the 530am flight to Tokyo via Cebu Pacific. It is important that you work on your visa at least two weeks before your scheduled travel date to have ample time for visa processing. I had my visa processed in an accredited travel agency at SM Megamall (5th floor Bridgeway). I paid.1,200 as processing fee for the travel agency.

It was quite an easy process for visa processing. You just need to submit filled out visa application form, NSO copy of birth certificate (1 year validity), bank statement, travel itinerary, picture, flight itinerary (if available). Visa processing can be as quick as 3 days to 7 working days. My visa was processed thru Reli Tours and Travel.

As I am planning on my itinerary, I saw that the ticket price for riding on a bullet train is quite expensive. But, foreigners who will visit Japan can purchase unlimited access to JR Railway if bought outside Japan. You can choose between 7 days, 14 days, 21 days. More info can be read here.

Japan Rail Pass

Japan Rail Pass

Going back to my Day 1 itinerary, left Philippines (Terminal 3) at around 530 am and Landed at Narita airport at around noon time. First thing I did is to look for the JR Office so that I can get my JR Rail Pass. I looked around to get a copy of Japan Railway map so that I know where to go. Seeing it initially make me intimidated as there are so many lines, at the same time one must be careful in transferring lines as you will be charged an additional amount – i.e. since I purchased JR Rail Pass, if I will transfer to a line which is not owned or under JR Railway, I will have to pay an additional amount on top of my 7-day unlimited JR Rail pass.

JR East

JR East

I tried to look in the map where is my hostel located, and it took me a while to figure out which line to go. On my end, I forgot to take note on the direction on how to go to the hotel (which station to alight, which direction to go, etc). So I ended up alighting at the wrong station, and me walking for at least 20 mins just to look for the guesthouse. Had I have noted it well before going to the guesthouse, the nearest railway station is just 5 minutes (or less) away. But I enjoyed the quite long walk nonetheless. I had a first hand experience with Japanese as I was asking for direction. They were very polite and helpful. The person who first assisted me actually walked with me in the first 5 minutes as the direction going to the guesthouse is quite confusing.

Guesthouse Wasabi

Guesthouse Wasabi

my bed (capsule)

my bed (capsule)

I left my stuff at the guesthouse, tried to roam around as I haven’t had lunch. After having my lunch, I decided to start exploring Tokyo!


I went to Shibuya station as this is where I will meet my friends from my prior company – Unilever. Before meeting them, my first goal is to see the famous Hachiko.


The best surprise for our dinner is basashi – Horse Sashimi. Yep, you heard me, it’s raw horse meat. I didn’t initially know that it is horse, and to my surprise it really taste good.


Horse Sashimi

I asked my friend if this is snail, but she says this is sea food. I don’t want to believe, but I still believed her though.


seafood or snail

I can’t believe that they cut the fish meat these thick!


Authentic Japanese Sashimi (ang kapal ng hiwa!!!)

I look tired but I am elated!


Cheers – ngiti ng tagumpay!

After dinner, I headed back to the Hostel as I haven’t slept yet since I left Philippines. Long day, but longer week ahead.


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Famous Quotes – The Art of Racing in the Rain

Saw a recommendation in Pinterest a few weeks back on books that are underrated. This is on the top of their list thus I decided to grab this in the nearest bookstore.

I was reading the first few pages and I was already teary eyed. Though I have an 8-hour (11 hour – to be accurate) day job, I managed to finish this within one day.

I have listed some of my favorite quotes on this book. Really a commendable book for every book and dog lover.

  • There is no dishonor in losing the race. There is only dishonor in not racing because you are afraid to lose.
  • He died that day because his body had served its purpose. His soul had done what it came to do, learned what it came to learn, and then was free to leave.
  • That which we manifest is before us; we are the creators of our own destiny. Be it through intention or ignorance, our successes and our failures have been brought on by none other than ourselves.
  • To live every day as if it had been stolen from death, that is how I would like to live. To feel the joy of life, as Eve felt the joy of life. To separate oneself from the burden, the angst, the anguish that we all encounter every day. To say I am alive, I am wonderful, I am. I am. That is something to aspire to.
  • Here’s why I will be a good person. Because I listen. I cannot talk, so I listen very well. I never deflect the course of the conversation with a comment of my own. People, if you pay attention to them, change the direction of one another’s conversations constantly. It’s like being a passenger in your car who suddenly grabs the steering wheel and turns you down a side street. For instance, if we met at a party and I wanted to tell you a story about the time I needed to get a soccer ball in my neighbor’s yard but his dog chased me and I had to jump into a swimming pool to escape, and I began telling the story, you, hearing the words “soccer” and “neighbor” in the same sentence, might interrupt and mention that your childhood neighbor was Pele, the famous soccer player, and I might be courteous and say, Didn’t he play for the Cosmos of New York? Did you grow up in New York? And you might reply that, no, you grew up in Brazil on the streets of Tres Coracoes with Pele, and I might say, I thought you were from Tennessee, and you might say not originally, and then go on to outline your genealogy at length. So my initial conversational gambit – that I had a funny story about being chased by my neighbor’s dog – would be totally lost, and only because you had to tell me all about Pele. Learn to listen! I beg of you. Pretend you are a dog like me and listen to other people rather than steal their stories.

    Uhaw si Katniss

    Uhaw si Katniss

  • The true hero is flawed. The true test of a champion is not whether he can triumph, but whether he can overcome obstacles – preferably of his own making – in order to triumph
  • That which is around me does not affect my mood; my mood affects that which is around me.
  • So much of language is unspoken. So much of language is compromised of looks and gestures and sounds that are not words. People are ignorant of the vast complexity of their own communication
  • I don’t understand why people insist on pitting concepts of evolution and creation against each other. Why can’t they see that spiritualism and science are one? That bodies evolve and souls evolve and the universe is a fluid package that marries them both in a wonderful package called a human being. What’s wrong with that idea?
  • The human language, as precise as it is with its thousands of words, can still be so wonderfully vague
  • People are always worried about what’s happening next. They often find it difficult to stand still, to occupy the now without worrying about the future. People are generally not satisfied with what they have; they are very concerned with what they are going to have
  • My soul has learned what it came to learn, and all the other things are just things. We can’t have everything we want. Sometimes, we simply have to believe
  • To separate oneself from the burden, the angst, the anguish that we all encounter everyday. To say I am alive, I am wonderful, I am. I am. That is something to aspire to
  • hachiko



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